I got chemo today.  I'm not sure what number this is.   I don't know how many I have left.  I think I have to get this one until Jan 2019 but I could be wrong.  I think it's strange that I don't know.  I don't know not because no one has told me but because I guess I'm no longer marker the time that way.  IDK.  That's what people text, idk.  It's easy.  I like it.

Today when I was getting chemo, a woman stopped by my room and said, "you make this look easy".  I had my headphones on while listening to Tara Brach talk about radical acceptance.  She had to repeat herself.  I thanked her.  She said it seemed like I was waiting for any other appointment, I was so calm.  Resigned is more like it.  I mean really, what choice is there?  It doesn't hurt to get chemo.  There are side effects.  No so much with this one but the ones before....uffda.  But the actual chemo itself doesn't hurt.  I've long forgotten the newness of the situation.  I've long let go of even paying attention to it when it happens.  Well, prior, I pay a lot of attention.  I talk to the nurses.  I ask questions about tthem.  Today I learned that my nurse, Miranda's daughter, Bailey shows horses.  Miranda showed horses as a kid.  Bailey doesn't own a horse but helps with and shows a friend's draft horse.  Bailey really likes it and could stay at the fair 24/7.  I also learned that Miranda's mom owns guinneas, mostly because she bought 10 acres then the land next to her got developed into apartments.  To get even, Miranda's mom got guineas.  Isn't that fabulous?  If you knew guineas, you wouldl know I'm right.
I felt soooo strong and powerful and at peace today.  Well, for most of the day.  It felt amazing.  I love it when I'm "in my truth".  I feel like I project a"you have no idea" flavor.  Powerful stuff.
Now I"m tired.  It's 9:48.  I'm ready forbed.
I started a job on Monday.  I walked about 6 miles each day according to my pedometer.  Dayum.  That's a lot.  It's great.  I feel powerful and strong.  We're all adjusting to my being gone. 
Thebiggest news? 

Ina May Gaskin (look her up) moved away from The Farm (look it up).  I'm not sure why, but I suspect it's u-g-l-y but whatever.  Anyway, she is now giving talks IN HER HOME for just a FEW PEOPLE and I'M GOING JULY 28 & 29 with my friend, Kate.  Kate texted me and said she was going did I want to come.  I had to give it a little thought and work out the kinks and I'M GOING.  OMG!!!  I got a confirmation from Ina May and we had a little email exchange.  I am soooo excited!