"I don't want you to isolate", those are words from my Oncologist, Mark Berkard. I'm trying not to. Of course, I haven't lost my hair yet, so that could change things I guess.
We are going out. When you live in a small (wonderful) town in WI, the place you go is a local tavern/bar. The one that's most special (IMHO) in my town, is the one where I work. We went out last night while the younger 2 were at the HS football game.
Have you ever gone someplace where everybody (pretty much) knows your name? Where at every turn people are giving you hugs and asking how you're doing and telling you they love you and they're thinking of you and they've got your back. Well, that's what happens around here. Every day. How amazing is that?
https://youtu.be/MjtPBjEz-BA
"I see my life come shining from the west down to the east
Any day now, any day now, I will shall be released"
I'm just at the beginning of this very long journey. sometimes that is really REALLY overwhelming. There are moments when I think it's just too much. I don't want to be a burden. To anyone. I'm a worker. I get shit done. And suddenly, I'm stopped in my tracks. My energy level is low. I have bouts of nauseaand fagitue. I just feel off. I'm on so many pills I can't even believe it. I've never been a pill taker and here I am, living on them. Oh well. One step at a time. One day at a time. One treatment at a time. I have every confidence that THIS is NOT what is gonna take me down (not this time anyway) but, geez oh man (in the illustrious words of Barbara Kingsolver's Rachel from The Poisonwood Bible - read it!!), it's not an easy road. I have a feeling it's gonna get worse before it gets better.
Interesting isn't it? I have to get really really sick before I can get better....
Onward and upward. I love you all!
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